Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears Adonai is to be praised.

I Yam What I Yam.
The contributors to this web site seek to recall various crucial facts, which people are led to disregard and even deny under the influence of the turmoil of the modern age. It is all about a journey into oneself from within and without. One of these basic facts is that of creation, that the universe, living things and man, are not self-existing entities, but the artifacts of G-d, the Supreme Creator. We are all created by Him and to Him we will all return. Love, not knowledge (intellectual), is the bond between G-d and man. From G-d's love proceeds only what is good, and punishment is also inherently good. G-d's omnipotence is not merely infinite in time, but also in intensity.
This web site calls everyone from every corner of the world, from whatever cultural, racial, ethnic or social background to realize this basic fact and think of his duties to his Creator. In this message lies the real redemption and happiness of mankind.

Remember the former things long past, for I am Elohim, and there is no other; I am YHWH, and there is no one like Me, declaring the end from the beginning, and from ancient times things which have not been done, saying, 'My purpose will be established, and I will accomplish all My good pleasure'; calling a bird of prey from the east, the man of My purpose from a far country. Truly I have spoken; truly I will bring it to pass. I have planned it, surely I will do it."
Isaiah 46:9-11

For thousands of years, all the world's greatest spiritual teachers: Abraham, Zarathushtra, Thoth (Hermes Trismegistus), the ancient Egyptian God of Wisdom, (an anunnaki), Confucius, Siddhārtha Gautama, Mahavira, Lao Tzu, Bodhidarma, Socrates, Pythagoras, Tatanka Yotanka, Isaiah, Osho Rajneesh, Yochanan the Immerser, (and others) have been preaching the same thing to humanity.

Ever since this world evolved, human beings have spent much time and energy improving external conditions in their search for happiness and a solution to their many problems. What has been the result?

Instead of their wishes being fulfilled, human suffering has continued to increase while the experience of happiness and peace is decreasing. This clearly shows that we need to find a true method for gaining pure happiness and freedom from misery.
The example of the Prophets are still good today, and anyone who sees his or her own religion overwhelmed by insensitive, exploitative "orthodoxy" can sympathize with these ancient revolutionaries; whose message is ever fresh and ever new.

Rain Man Did It !

I Yam What I Yam.

My autistic little brother crashed the computer again, he is a good boy most of the time.
I've been looking after him, ever since our mother died unexpectedly at 63. Help is on the way, my two handsome nephews are coming, and we should have it fixed by next week.

In religion we attempt to mask our doubts, and fears, and to put a false face on G-d to suit our liking. Because this applies to all religions, there is automatically an inherent danger of false teachings. We find ourselves forgetting, that all our words are merely man made symbols. The sin of all religions is religion, and the worship there of. Too frequently we become so attached to our ways of thinking and speaking that we forget that they are only creations of the human mind. We not only forget that our forms of worship are designed by man, but also that our ideas about the nature of the world spring from our very thoughts.

Bruce Springsteen On 60 Minutes

I Yam What I Yam.

I love this guy, he is a few years older than me, but he is not ready for the rockin chair yet. Bruce still Rocks! And if he can play it, I can dance to it. God has been so good to us. I have seen men and women in their 40s, all used up, and ready for the old folks home.
It is a sad site for me to see, because I once dated some of those nubile girls so full of life. Now 20 years later, I hardly know them. They seem to have lost all their zeal for life.

The Alpha Male

I Yam What I Yam.

One of the problems of being an alpha male, is the impact of your spiritual, and emotional health on those who become dependant on your leadership, or guidance. I can't afford to allow myself to bleed out for an indefinite period of time.
No matter how badly I may be hurting inside; I must force myself to recover or the people around me will go nuts. Much like a hive of bees that has lost their queen.

To those of you who have been feeling the shock waves, I'm sorry to have caused you to be concerned. It is not the end of the world, I am recovering even as you read this. In fact I will post this message on my other blog, in a few days. As I endeavor to get back to normal.

Sanctuary of Grace

I Yam What I Yam.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!:

I'm not accustomed to rejection, it is something I rarely encounter in the real world. Blogging was just a sideshow in my life until I won and lost Sarah in a flash. Then I realised such an event would never have happened had I been able to establish some credibility for myself. I had nothing to offer, I failed to make a single friend. I did get invitations to visit Germany, and the great state of Alabama. I think it is a cultural thing with the Germans, they are bound to invite anyone they blog with to come visit their country. For the most part I get the feeling that most bloggers would rather keep me inside their computers, and not come anywhere near their home state. Like I said all this did not bother me, until Sarah placed me in an extremely challenging situation, with no chance of showing her just who and what I am. Sarah did her best to accommodate me, but words are only words, and she needed the habeas corpus, to make me a real candidate. Oh how much I wished that anyone, would of invited me to come up North, so I could at last be someone as real as my love.

The way I feel

I Yam What I Yam.


Only the lonely know the way I feel. I never would have thought, blogging could make you feel so empty in a house full of friends.
Don't you worry about me, I am, de gek op de heuvel; and I still enjoy a good life, free to do as I please. I will not give up until I please Caren, and for once, make her proud. Maybe then, the Queen of all my dreams will return to take me for a real test drive. Yes, a date with Sarah was, all I wanted, but what do I get instead? Well just let me tell you; I get a date with Ned Flanders! I'm not kidding, this guy is so Ned, he even talks, word for word like him, and wants to pick me up for church Sunday. His real name is Dick, and I have had Dick after me for a month now. I need to find a nice way to tell Dick and the other Baptist that their religion is junk, and that there was no Jesus.

My Hiding Place

I Yam What I Yam.

This is the place where my religious metamorphosis into Abraham, all began. I went through a lot of changes on this blog, before I got to the finale point of denouncing all religions, as pagan idolatry. Christianity and Islam are among the worst, but Jewish idolatry is also a very real problem. "Our forefather Abraham began his search for the infinite dimension when he was three years old with a very simple, yet piercing question -- the kind of question most three year olds ask when they see something for the first time".

"Whose is it?"

One day little Abraham sees the moon and asks his father, "Dad, who owns the moon?" His father answers in the way of any self-respecting idol worshipper: "It belongs to the moon god, son," as he pulls the moon god off the shelf to show him.

Abraham's next question is, "Well who owns the moon god?"

With this simple question, Abraham is on the cusp of discovering the source of creation. He realizes that finite gods have a beginning, something that existed prior that created them. So Abraham keeps going backwards through the process, searching for the beginning of it all, disregarding the finite gods that exist in time and space. Eventually he reaches God with a capital G, the Being that existed before there ever was time, and asks, "Well, who created God? Where did He come from?"

A being that exists beyond time doesn't come from anywhere. He has always existed. If something created God, God would have a beginning and He'd be finite, not infinite. Beyond time means having no beginning and no end. Eternal. It means there is nothing that exists before God. 'Before' is a time-bound quality that applies only to finite entities. Therefore God is called "the First Cause" -- the Prime Mover -- the dimension that has no other dimension preceding it.

Abraham discovers the infinite source of existence, an Eternal Being, unhindered by time and space.

"Every Jew must believe and know that there exists a First Being, without beginning or end, who brought all things into existence and continues to sustain them. This Being is God." [Rabbi Moshe Chaim Luzzato, in his 18th century work, The Way of God]
I may have lost the love of my life, but I still have the walk to replenish my soul and restore my battered heart. Some of these people I blog with are so much like kin folks I can't help but love them. When we were in our 20's. Caren could of passed for the sister I never had. Except she has the beautiful eyes of my mother's cousin Roy. And cousin Roy himself, was a dead ringer for Sarah's grandfather, the late Rabbi, Alvin Fine. Brad, looks like and is just as strange as my cousin Kenny. Dave is uncle George, only much more honest. If Roy is Caren's real father, that would explain a lot of things. Joel Keller, reminds me of my best friend in high school, Mike Hackworth, a real nice guy, but he could be a real prick if things did not go his way. Derek Rose, is another dead ringer! Looks just like Larry, one of my cousins over in Ohio. I'm so embarrassed, after all these years, I'm still just a nobody in their eyes. I may be here for a good while, I must be really bad at communicating, I'm sure that these nice folks, would think a lot better of me, in the real world.